im a little .hot.and.cold.
well, I guess thats just me latey in general. im finding myself to be..."off?" - and its not the first time.
im shut in.
im not bieng a good friend.
im not working as hard as I should be.
im not doing the right things.
and I just dont feel like im...I dont know, a good enough person right now.
.so what does she do?.... RUN. - to Edmonton we go. (insert.GAG.)
so - this is one of those blogs with a disclaimer attached... im whiney. but read on if you will
they are my thoughts. and I gaurd them well.
If im not a person who cries alot. is this a problem?
I look inside my head sometimes and find this .wall.
and hard to break.
and all these thoughts just gather behind it. thoughts that cross my mind for a second...and INSTANT. and I push them away.
lots of people do that right?
but mine go behind my
and when my thoughts come over my
we have a bit of a problem.
I get anxoius. sure, everyone gets that too right? when you breathe just a little heavier...and worry a little more. most people can handle it.
I struggle with that.
its just me, its my trial.
some days are better than others.
some days are hard on Tay.
some days I just need my dog.
some days I just want to haze out
I cant wait to crawl out of bed and into the arms of the person who loves me.
I have a lot of amazing things.
but the truth is
I have anxiety.
the other truth is - im still here.
and I got him.
I cant wait for tomorrow.