Friday, December 30, 2011

I want to be great.

its almost the weekend.

Lots of people were asking how I lost the bit of weight I have lost over the last little while...

so when I went to the gym yesterday, I really thought about it.

I have been a yoyo dieter my whole life... I take things to the extreme. im never "sort of dieting" or "popping into the gym for 20 minutes"

its go hard or go home for me. - to a fault.

when I decided to start dieting, I cut my calories way back. too far back.

when I started exercising, I realized that I needed to eat more.

but it didn't mean that I needed to eat huge enormous meals.

my body wont let me anymore.

I eat more often, I try and make my meals 250 cal or less. my stomach cant handle more than that...

Meat has worked its way out of my diet... I have replaced the protein with Lentils and Oatmeal etc. not because I don't want to eat a bloody steak... but because I cant. sometimes I wonder if its my body telling me..."Thank you"

I cant go to the gym and walk on the treadmill for 20 minutes anymore.

ever since I ran my marathon, I realized that if you want to see results... you had better work your ass off. Literally.

I go on the elliptical cross trainer for about an hour... 755 calories shows a good workout for me.

on "heavy" days... I make my goal to burn 1000 calories. I will hop from Bike to Treadmill to the StairMaster... until I hit that number.

it takes a long time, but I have no life.

im realizing the importance of protein and rest days again. I can feel my body breaking down if I work it too hard for too long.

Long story short... I have a lot of learning to do.

I have a lot more to learn about my body and how to diet and work it down to exactly what I want it to be.

when I have kids, I want to be healthy and active.

I want to be great.

Happy New years everyone.


Wednesday, December 28, 2011


Christmas was good this year.

Those of you who know me, know im not a HUGE Christmas fan.

I border on Grinchy.

But I do love December for various reasons.

In the beginning of December, BECKA had her big 30th...

(AKA an excuse to go out and get spoiled with the sassy sisters.)

T has his Birthday.

Which we kept very low-key because of exam time.

for Christmas I got some great SWAG... including a gorgeous new coach purse from my in-laws and this adorable apron-rubber glove combo from my mom.

judge away!

I also love December because it is the promise of a new year... its closer than ever. Im not going to lie, 2011 started out rough for our little family, but its only gotten better.

new year=new me...

I have done something or been somewhere drastic every December since I can remember.

This year I kept it a little "low key" - Becca (my sister in law) is an AMAZING little coz student who did me the honor of cutting and coloring my hair...

Again, for those of you who know me.... im kind of a "go hard or go home" person...

Here is my before... Borrrring.




I kind of love it.

my little niece told me I looked like Ariel... a Disney princess? I'll take it.

I know this post is getting a little long... but I am always bantering about my weight.

A quick...update.

I have been working my ASS OFF...quite literally. since August I have gone from 150-129 pounds.

2012 will be my year.

T and I are working our butts off to get places. and we will

happy new year everyone.

I wish you peace and happiness.



Friday, December 23, 2011

In the new year.

a new look to the blog... and real-live updates on how we are doing.


R and T

Wednesday, July 13, 2011


Ugh, im having some serious issues with this

RAIN - Thats been falling here in the capital city recently.

Like really? ITS SUMMER!

give me some SUN!

It really affects my mood...

in other news... im getting a new piano keyboard!

update to come :)



Wednesday, July 6, 2011

I scream - you scream

I have a serious issue with ice cream right now...

(photos from a wedding recption a few weeks ago)

obviously... all this "iced cream"

this is throwing my "skinny summer" plans way off base...


Whats your favorite flavor?



Monday, July 4, 2011


"Always remember to slow down in life; live, breathe and learn; take a look around you whenever you have time and never forget everything and every person that has the least place within your heart. "

I have been known for being almost too sentimental.

so sentimental, in fact... that I think it is impossible to be too sentimental... I mean, come on!

I'm all about the "good times" - I have thousands of good memories floating around my head.

"all I need is the air I breath, and a place to rest my head"

I love music. probably because music is the gateway to every memory I have ever had. The song I had my first kiss to, the song I got married to, the song that was playing when I got into my first car accident. the song I played on repeat at my first college party. For good or bad, every song describes a point, a person...a feeling in my life.

"as if a good thing ever could make up for all the pain"

I have problems saying some things that I'm thinking out loud, so I find a song that is saying, singing, or screaming out loud exactly what I'm thinking... sometimes word for word.

I find comfort in knowing that someone out there can put what I'm thinking...into words.

"sometimes perfect, can be a perfect hell"

There are some points in my life I have tried very hard to erase. I have been a person I am not proud of, but a girl that will never be ashamed of. - I still listen to the songs that make me feel those same sad, hurt, unbearable feelings... sometimes I still torment myself. I am the master of my own destruction. one good play list and im down for the count.

why do I do that?

sometimes im scared that those memories are all I will have in the end. they all made me who I am today. so I will keep them. those sweet melodies will keep my puzzle together.

"paid vacation from sights and lights and sounds."

SO...Thank you

Ben FoldsAdelealanis Morisettealexisonfireallredaugustanaavrillavigne







For bieng some of my biggest heroes. for saying what I cant. for helping me through.




“Summer is where the girls go barefoot and their hearts are just as free as their toes.”

What a great summer kick-off long weekend!

everyone (including Boss) is totally exhausted

We went out with T's family to Dixon Dam where they have a gorgeous trailer (I am not much of a camper...perfect for me!)

basically it was sun sun and more sun! the best weekend possible to sit around all day drinking cokes and catching up. - Canada day came and we went to Sylvan lake to catch some fireworks... as we were driving out we saw this in the distance...

"hmm, must be a fire..."

as we got closer the cloud got bigger and smokier... and we realized we were going to drive right into it!

when we got right up to it, a warehouse was on fire, right beside the highway. HUGE plumes of smoke and random fireballs shooting up into the air! it was crazy! no amount of fireworks would compare.

We drove by this site again on our way back to Edmonton... there is NOTHING left.

it made for some good shots tho!

I love T's Family. I fit like a perfect puzzle piece. I love T because of the way his parents raised him. they did a good job, and If I love him, I love them too.

Its officially July.

woah, the year is half over already!

oh well. its summer!!



Wednesday, June 29, 2011



SO yesterday I had a chance to go out to my BFF Kelti's family farm and meet her horses... well, some of them were horses... the rest were pony's! cutest little guys EVER!

There were a few babies running around... and when you go up to them, you can literally pick them up! its so adorable! (not that they like being picked up and carried around...)

isn't she SWEET!? I just wanted to pick her up and put her in my car and buckle her up and take her home and watch her prance around my house in all her mini-glory!! - I know I know... crazy thoughts again// but wouldn't that be hilarious! - little horses. HA!

Then we got down to business. some big ol' quarter horses needed a little bit of exercise!
we saddled up and took them out for a run...

now these horses were not tame horses... but I wasn't expecting this.. we were doing a slow run, and that horse just threw her head down and went rodeo style on me!
I held on with all my might, and she wasn't able to throw me (bragging? a little...)
Kelti looked back just as I was gathering myself and yelling...

"I've never felt so alive!"

at the end of the day the old girl and I made up, and had a pleasant little ride before it got too late and we had to brush our horses down, set em out to pasture and call it a night.

its been probably 6 years since Ive been on a horse. the girl I used to be was a horse-addict.
horses all over my room, painted on my walls, drawings on every notebook I had.
I know that girl is still in there. it felt so good to let her out... let her be that country-girl again

The summer is just beginning... I cant wait to see what other parts of me feel like coming back out. This summer will be full of fun, love, laughs and futures... Rodeo style.



Tuesday, June 28, 2011


I want to start this post with a shoutout!

My childhood to current BFF Carissa Lang is auditioning to be the Nashville North Star at the Calgary Stampede! she needs lots of votes to get to the top 10... then she can come home from NY to visit!!

go to this link before reading on to the rest of this boring Blog post... leave a comment here about what you think!


now... on to my boring/kind of artsy fartsy emo post...


I like to consider myself an artist... I have all the correct features, I believe.

I'm bubly, sad, content, anguished... talentless but full of heart and love... even though I'm not sure if it exists in real-life application. it comes out in photos, poems, songs, monologues to friends and colleges... and here on my blog.

everyone is an artist/everyone shows themselves differently. showing yourself, not hiding yourself... makes you orginal...makes you an artist.

okay okay, rant over. just a little thought from my little brain. im very pensive today.

I took this creeper shot on my iphone while I sat across from this man on the train... he was playing with his hands incesantly... it was making me nervous... anxious... so I snapped a picture... HA! that held them still.

sometimes I feel like a total wierdo.

I think at some point everyone feels like a headcase. you know, a total nut job.
Has it ever happened when something crosses your mind and you think... woah. did that thought just come out of my brain?


well, like I said... Nut Job.

SIGH* - Anyways.

Tay and I are looking into a keyboard. like a legit...weighted keyboard so that I can get out some of this artiscial buildup in my brain...

<3 xx

Crazy rc.

Friday, June 24, 2011


and the worst blogger award goes to...

I bet you can guess...

"oh thank you thank you! - I would like to thank my hectic life, my husband, and my tiny data plan for helping me stay off of my blog for months... I couldnt do it without you!"

but seriously.

I suck.

I spent some serious time to myself.

now, when your married, it isnt really time to "yourself" - but it was nice just the same. my wonderful husband helps me through anything. even if it is time by myself. I am slowly coming out of it... but still feeling very anti-social...

well, since it has been a while, I figure I would do a "my favorite things" blog post! Things I am currently in love/obosessed with.


seriuolsy... I am in love with Twitter. it has helped me really connect with some people at long distances... and those that know me, know that I love my facebook status updates... so this is like FB status updates on drugs! - here is my link! I just love following celebs mostely... which leads to my next current fave...


Seriuolsy Indulgent, but I have spent many sundays glued to this series... many gigs of data finding out the latest gossip... I follow all of them on twitter... I feel like I know them personally! my favorite is Chloe - this huge tall girl who is big boned and has a big attitude. look into it. you might understand why she is my fave ;)


I am totaslly obsessed with my iphone 4... however, from all the use... my phone was taking a beating... AKA it looked like crap, the protective cover was peeling off, the coke zero case on the back had scratches all over it... not a pretty sight. so they other day I went and had GHOST ARMOUR professionally put on it. This stuff is great, it makes your phone look like there is nothing on it (everyone loves the original Iphone look...) while protecting all of it gauranteed against scratches and peeling for LIFE! - I love my baby... I mean phone. My ghost armour and I promise to take good care of it... (until the next Iphone comes out shhh...)

And finally, due to all this "self time" I have become obsessed with the show


I love everything about it... legit good singers getting a real chance... and amazing artists spending some time sharing their gifts. LOVE LOVE LOVE!

Well, I guess thats it for now... like I said. solitary confinement has made me a little batty... and highly uninteresting. - I still follow everyones blogs religously... I will get better!



Tuesday, March 1, 2011


\\\Sorry team, some much needed time off of my blog is coming up the next few days///...




Saturday, February 26, 2011

This is what a sassy sister weekend looks like... sort of.

A sister is a little bit of childhood that can never be lost.