Tuesday, December 29, 2009



So first off, I want to gove a great big .SHOUT.OUT. to a couple of people.
every time I get on to blog,
Taylor gets on his XBox.
we all have our...things...right?
anyways, I have a couple loyal blog readers that taylor plays with...(what winners)... JK.... BANILLA and KEVIN.

tell Taylor to get off Xbox and love me.

It was a GREAT Christmas!
Boss might not agree...

anyways, we did LOTS of christmas-y(?) things...like gingerbread houses!
pajamas on Christmas Eve!!
and my personal FAVE


It has been a few years since I have been home for christmas...like, really BEEN HOME. done all the christmas stuff. While I was with the big X I avoided my family, all the time. I have spent the last 2 christmas' in B.C, and 2 in South America. thats four Good years I missed.

but my loving Hubby made sure this christmas was AWESOME. it felt so good to spend time with my family, and his, I really feel like I am a solid sister in his big family of boys (and one girl! no knocks Becca!) I felt so blessed to be where I was this year.

at home, with people I love.


Thursday, December 17, 2009



I still have so much trouble


I have so many nights when I just lay there and listen to Taylor breathe (or SNORE...gah...lol)

I started taking melatonin,

no dice...

I took some sedatives, and they helped for a while...

but seriously?

WHY cant I sleep?

I was reading over my old blog today, http://www.rachelsrunningstory.blogspot.com/ and thinking about how far I have come since this time last year! woah, im married! im getting older! im living in a different city! I have a new dog! I have some new friends, I have built and burned bridges with old ones. but overall

have I really changed that much?

what do you think?

.x.x. - R

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

happy birthday hubby

Today my Tay is 21!

It was a fun day, I unfortunately had to work, but I gave him a truly domestic breakfast in bed...

(captain crunch...on a cookie sheet)... is that a point for domestication? shoot.


and then gave him his gift!

well, I couldnt really give him his gift...its on its way here!

okay dont judge me for what I got him, this is the last thing I would be encouraging...but I had no other ideas... and he wanted them sooo bad

so here they are, this astro professional.... gaming.... headset?... apparrently its like...a surround sound... super... something? it set me back a few hundred dollars...BUT he loves them!
Tay gives up a lot for me. I love giving him things that will make him happy.

happy birthday my Tay!

I cant believe this is my first birthday with him... ha ha it sounds a little rediculous, and I think about it all the time, how quickly we met, fell in love and got married... was It a mistake?

no way.


when you know....you know...

and I KNOW.


I love you Tay


Friday, December 11, 2009


The night is deafening when the silence is listening
And I´m down on my knees and I know that something is missing.
Because the back of my mind is holding things I´m relying in
But I choose to ignore it because I´m always denying them.

I´m a bit of a manic when it´s not as I plan itCause I start losing my head and then I get up in a panic
Remember when we were kids and always knew when to quit it
Are we denying a crisis or are we scared of admitting it?

I don´t want to know

.I need a savior.

so lately has been .ROUGH.

work is fine, life is....fine. I love my husband, I love my marriage and bieng married to my bestest best friend...

but im struggling with some BAD LUCK lately.

and its totally


so on Saturday afternoon I started having some pains on my right side, I sucked it up and went to work at Mongolie Grill anyways, but it started getting worse, and worse...and AAARGH! I was in the most intense pain of my LIFE.

that night I went to the hospital, and was there all night, this sounds gross, but I started peeing BLOOD um, YUCK? - my sweet Tay was there practically the whole time, he even pulled some chairs together and slept beside me as I cried and squeeled in pain for probably 6 hours on a hospital emergency bed. - after a long time the doctor came in and told me I had a very severe kidney infection. and I later found out I had eaten the ecoli bacteria! GROSS!




but after I got my first round on IV from the emergency, they sent me home...but not without some baggage... - I had an IV STUCK in my arm fort he next 4 days - they would just unplug the IV and wrap the needle up in a bandage at my elbow and send me off

feeling like


no im just on some steady anti-biotics...and feeling much better,

I even got to go back to


im having a lot of fun working for GoodLife! its a good atmosphere.

but im still feeling sick lately

im starting to gain weight...


but im just generally unhealthy...

HURRY AND OPEN brand new fitness club!