The night is deafening when the silence is listening
And I´m down on my knees and I know that something is missing.
Because the back of my mind is holding things I´m relying in
But I choose to ignore it because I´m always denying them.
I´m a bit of a manic when it´s not as I plan itCause I start losing my head and then I get up in a panic
Remember when we were kids and always knew when to quit it
Are we denying a crisis or are we scared of admitting it?
I don´t want to know
.I need a savior.
And I´m down on my knees and I know that something is missing.
Because the back of my mind is holding things I´m relying in
But I choose to ignore it because I´m always denying them.
I´m a bit of a manic when it´s not as I plan itCause I start losing my head and then I get up in a panic
Remember when we were kids and always knew when to quit it
Are we denying a crisis or are we scared of admitting it?
I don´t want to know
.I need a savior.
so lately has been .ROUGH.
work is fine, life is....fine. I love my husband, I love my marriage and bieng married to my bestest best friend...
but im struggling with some BAD LUCK lately.
.throwing.my.CHI.
im having a lot of fun working for GoodLife! its a good atmosphere.
so on Saturday afternoon I started having some pains on my right side, I sucked it up and went to work at Mongolie Grill anyways, but it started getting worse, and worse...and AAARGH! I was in the most intense pain of my LIFE.
that night I went to the hospital, and was there all night, this sounds gross, but I started peeing BLOOD um, YUCK? - my sweet Tay was there practically the whole time, he even pulled some chairs together and slept beside me as I cried and squeeled in pain for probably 6 hours on a hospital emergency bed. - after a long time the doctor came in and told me I had a very severe kidney infection. and I later found out I had eaten the ecoli bacteria! GROSS!
gross
gross
GROSS!
but after I got my first round on IV from the emergency, they sent me home...but not without some baggage... - I had an IV STUCK in my arm fort he next 4 days - they would just unplug the IV and wrap the needle up in a bandage at my elbow and send me off
feeling like
POOP
no im just on some steady anti-biotics...and feeling much better,
I even got to go back to
WORK!
im having a lot of fun working for GoodLife! its a good atmosphere.but im still feeling sick lately
im starting to gain weight...
(NOT PREGNANT) lol
but im just generally unhealthy...
HURRY AND OPEN brand new fitness club!
gah
.x.x.
.R.
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