.home.at.last.

.OKAY.

So first off, I want to gove a great big .SHOUT.OUT. to a couple of people.

every time I get on to blog,

Taylor gets on his XBox.

WELL,

we all have our...things...right?

anyways, I have a couple loyal blog readers that taylor plays with...(what winners)... JK.... BANILLA and KEVIN.

tell Taylor to get off Xbox and love me.

ANYWAYS

It was a GREAT Christmas!

Boss might not agree...

anyways, we did LOTS of christmas-y(?) things...like gingerbread houses!
pajamas on Christmas Eve!!

and my personal FAVE

I GOT A CHI STRAIGHTENER!

YES!

It has been a few years since I have been home for christmas...like, really BEEN HOME. done all the christmas stuff. While I was with the big X I avoided my family, all the time. I have spent the last 2 christmas' in B.C, and 2 in South America. thats four Good years I missed.

but my loving Hubby made sure this christmas was AWESOME. it felt so good to spend time with my family, and his, I really feel like I am a solid sister in his big family of boys (and one girl! no knocks Becca!) I felt so blessed to be where I was this year.

at home, with people I love.

.R.

.the.sleep.walker.

.and.it.continues.


I still have so much trouble

.SLEEPING.

I have so many nights when I just lay there and listen to Taylor breathe (or SNORE...gah...lol)

I started taking melatonin,

no dice...

I took some sedatives, and they helped for a while...

but seriously?

WHY cant I sleep?

I was reading over my old blog today, http://www.rachelsrunningstory.blogspot.com/ and thinking about how far I have come since this time last year! woah, im married! im getting older! im living in a different city! I have a new dog! I have some new friends, I have built and burned bridges with old ones. but overall

have I really changed that much?

what do you think?

.x.x. - R

happy birthday hubby

Today my Tay is 21!

It was a fun day, I unfortunately had to work, but I gave him a truly domestic breakfast in bed...

(captain crunch...on a cookie sheet)... is that a point for domestication? shoot.

//\\

and then gave him his gift!

well, I couldnt really give him his gift...its on its way here!

okay dont judge me for what I got him, this is the last thing I would be encouraging...but I had no other ideas... and he wanted them sooo bad

so here they are, this astro professional.... gaming.... headset?... apparrently its like...a surround sound... super... something? it set me back a few hundred dollars...BUT he loves them!

Tay gives up a lot for me. I love giving him things that will make him happy.

happy birthday my Tay!

I cant believe this is my first birthday with him... ha ha it sounds a little rediculous, and I think about it all the time, how quickly we met, fell in love and got married... was It a mistake?

no way.

because,

when you know....you know...

and I KNOW.

.x.x..x.x.x

I love you Tay

.R.

.savior.

The night is deafening when the silence is listening
And I´m down on my knees and I know that something is missing.
Because the back of my mind is holding things I´m relying in
But I choose to ignore it because I´m always denying them.

I´m a bit of a manic when it´s not as I plan itCause I start losing my head and then I get up in a panic
Remember when we were kids and always knew when to quit it
Are we denying a crisis or are we scared of admitting it?

I don´t want to know

.I need a savior.

so lately has been .ROUGH.

work is fine, life is....fine. I love my husband, I love my marriage and bieng married to my bestest best friend...

but im struggling with some BAD LUCK lately.

and its totally

.throwing.my.CHI.

so on Saturday afternoon I started having some pains on my right side, I sucked it up and went to work at Mongolie Grill anyways, but it started getting worse, and worse...and AAARGH! I was in the most intense pain of my LIFE.

that night I went to the hospital, and was there all night, this sounds gross, but I started peeing BLOOD um, YUCK? - my sweet Tay was there practically the whole time, he even pulled some chairs together and slept beside me as I cried and squeeled in pain for probably 6 hours on a hospital emergency bed. - after a long time the doctor came in and told me I had a very severe kidney infection. and I later found out I had eaten the ecoli bacteria! GROSS!

gross

gross

GROSS!

but after I got my first round on IV from the emergency, they sent me home...but not without some baggage... - I had an IV STUCK in my arm fort he next 4 days - they would just unplug the IV and wrap the needle up in a bandage at my elbow and send me off

feeling like

POOP

no im just on some steady anti-biotics...and feeling much better,

I even got to go back to

WORK!

im having a lot of fun working for GoodLife! its a good atmosphere.

but im still feeling sick lately

im starting to gain weight...

(NOT PREGNANT) lol

but im just generally unhealthy...

HURRY AND OPEN brand new fitness club!

gah

.x.x.

.R.