Thinking about this day...














I could never ask for anything more perfect. What's in the next chapter? I feel like this is OUR year. XX R

Location:Say forever.

The girl with the screaming brain?

Tonight I got homeAnd didn't want to go to the gymAgain.




Boss pawed at my legs to go outside and gave me that "I have so much energy it's coming out of my eyeballs" look.You know the one...




.. I checked the weather and it was about 2 degrees.

I will run.

When I realized that I had left my headphones at work I hesitated... But after some thought I hooked up the Boss, started my watch and went for a quiet run.

So.quiet.

I use music as a way of distracting myself. Normally because I'm in a gym and hate listening to meatheads grunt and sweat (yes... Listen to them sweat...)

Tonight I heard:

The panting of my dog.
The crushing of ice under my runners.
My ponytail brushing against my running jacket.
The "tap tap tap" of my feet.

And my brain going....

"OH MY GOSH! You idiot! Why are you running? You hate running! Ugh, your lungs! They are burning! Watch out for that ice! I hate EVERY second of this. our legs hate you. I'm cold... Oh.. We're done? Hm, I guess that was okay."

Welcome to my brain.




All in all I'm glad I went...Now I can tuck into my warm bed... And quietly fall asleep...Right brain???




Sigh.4:45 is going to come way too soon.




xxR

Tired.

Today I am tired.


So I let my body have what it wanted. Muffin, Mac and cheese... A night off the gym to make vegan dhal with my boys


And finally paint my nails by my fave candle (mmm chocolate mint)


As I twisted the lid back onto my old nail polish, I worried. Am I falling off the wagon? I literally would do anything BUT go to the gym today. It's always those days when I eat the most. Bah. Sometimes I let my dieting consume me, and then when I fall off the wagon... Well in the past I have fallen hard. I can't let it happen again. I'm scared. I keep saying tomorrow is a new day. I guess I'll keep getting up and trying.


T had this amazing idea to cook lots of small, calorie portioned meals and freeze them. I'm excited to see how it goes actually. It's been amazing having him off school, being a little housewife, and he's so supportive of me. He knows me better than anyone... I'm so blessed to have him. *yawn* it's late and I work early... It's sleep time loves...


xx R

HOT DOG!

ITS FINALLY A NEW YEAR!

I am actually VERY excited for this upcoming year...

change is coming, I can feel it. I'm starting this year near my goal weight, my family is happy and has a great place to live, I have plans for this year...

and I cant wait for you to hear about them as I go.

as WE GO.

A new year also means a new look for baby Bossley. he is a Pomeranian American Eskimo (it shows in his hyper-activity)

but he gets HOT...

so when he gets looking a little too much like a lion...

we give him a haircut, and he feels like one hundred Bucks!

They even gave him a little army -bow

and now hes one (I have to say it)

Hot Dog!

xoxo

R

I want to be great.

its almost the weekend.


Lots of people were asking how I lost the bit of weight I have lost over the last little while...

so when I went to the gym yesterday, I really thought about it.




I have been a yoyo dieter my whole life... I take things to the extreme. im never "sort of dieting" or "popping into the gym for 20 minutes"


its go hard or go home for me. - to a fault.


when I decided to start dieting, I cut my calories way back. too far back.


when I started exercising, I realized that I needed to eat more.


but it didn't mean that I needed to eat huge enormous meals.


my body wont let me anymore.


I eat more often, I try and make my meals 250 cal or less. my stomach cant handle more than that...


Meat has worked its way out of my diet... I have replaced the protein with Lentils and Oatmeal etc. not because I don't want to eat a bloody steak... but because I cant. sometimes I wonder if its my body telling me..."Thank you"


I cant go to the gym and walk on the treadmill for 20 minutes anymore.


ever since I ran my marathon, I realized that if you want to see results... you had better work your ass off. Literally.







I go on the elliptical cross trainer for about an hour... 755 calories shows a good workout for me.

on "heavy" days... I make my goal to burn 1000 calories. I will hop from Bike to Treadmill to the StairMaster... until I hit that number.


it takes a long time, but I have no life.


im realizing the importance of protein and rest days again. I can feel my body breaking down if I work it too hard for too long.





Long story short... I have a lot of learning to do.



I have a lot more to learn about my body and how to diet and work it down to exactly what I want it to be.



when I have kids, I want to be healthy and active.





I want to be great.





Happy New years everyone.





R

.FACE LIFT.

Christmas was good this year.

Those of you who know me, know im not a HUGE Christmas fan.

I border on Grinchy.

But I do love December for various reasons.

In the beginning of December, BECKA had her big 30th...

(AKA an excuse to go out and get spoiled with the sassy sisters.)

T has his Birthday.

Which we kept very low-key because of exam time.

for Christmas I got some great SWAG... including a gorgeous new coach purse from my in-laws and this adorable apron-rubber glove combo from my mom.

judge away!

I also love December because it is the promise of a new year... its closer than ever. Im not going to lie, 2011 started out rough for our little family, but its only gotten better.

new year=new me...

I have done something or been somewhere drastic every December since I can remember.

This year I kept it a little "low key" - Becca (my sister in law) is an AMAZING little coz student who did me the honor of cutting and coloring my hair...

Again, for those of you who know me.... im kind of a "go hard or go home" person...

Here is my before... Borrrring.

DURING.

aaaand....

RED.

I kind of love it.

my little niece told me I looked like Ariel... a Disney princess? I'll take it.

I know this post is getting a little long... but I am always bantering about my weight.

A quick...update.

I have been working my ASS OFF...quite literally. since August I have gone from 150-129 pounds.

2012 will be my year.

T and I are working our butts off to get places. and we will

happy new year everyone.

I wish you peace and happiness.

xx

R

In the new year.

a new look to the blog... and real-live updates on how we are doing.

xx

R and T