I want to be great.

its almost the weekend.


Lots of people were asking how I lost the bit of weight I have lost over the last little while...

so when I went to the gym yesterday, I really thought about it.




I have been a yoyo dieter my whole life... I take things to the extreme. im never "sort of dieting" or "popping into the gym for 20 minutes"


its go hard or go home for me. - to a fault.


when I decided to start dieting, I cut my calories way back. too far back.


when I started exercising, I realized that I needed to eat more.


but it didn't mean that I needed to eat huge enormous meals.


my body wont let me anymore.


I eat more often, I try and make my meals 250 cal or less. my stomach cant handle more than that...


Meat has worked its way out of my diet... I have replaced the protein with Lentils and Oatmeal etc. not because I don't want to eat a bloody steak... but because I cant. sometimes I wonder if its my body telling me..."Thank you"


I cant go to the gym and walk on the treadmill for 20 minutes anymore.


ever since I ran my marathon, I realized that if you want to see results... you had better work your ass off. Literally.







I go on the elliptical cross trainer for about an hour... 755 calories shows a good workout for me.

on "heavy" days... I make my goal to burn 1000 calories. I will hop from Bike to Treadmill to the StairMaster... until I hit that number.


it takes a long time, but I have no life.


im realizing the importance of protein and rest days again. I can feel my body breaking down if I work it too hard for too long.





Long story short... I have a lot of learning to do.



I have a lot more to learn about my body and how to diet and work it down to exactly what I want it to be.



when I have kids, I want to be healthy and active.





I want to be great.





Happy New years everyone.





R

.FACE LIFT.

Christmas was good this year.

Those of you who know me, know im not a HUGE Christmas fan.

I border on Grinchy.

But I do love December for various reasons.

In the beginning of December, BECKA had her big 30th...

(AKA an excuse to go out and get spoiled with the sassy sisters.)

T has his Birthday.

Which we kept very low-key because of exam time.

for Christmas I got some great SWAG... including a gorgeous new coach purse from my in-laws and this adorable apron-rubber glove combo from my mom.

judge away!

I also love December because it is the promise of a new year... its closer than ever. Im not going to lie, 2011 started out rough for our little family, but its only gotten better.

new year=new me...

I have done something or been somewhere drastic every December since I can remember.

This year I kept it a little "low key" - Becca (my sister in law) is an AMAZING little coz student who did me the honor of cutting and coloring my hair...

Again, for those of you who know me.... im kind of a "go hard or go home" person...

Here is my before... Borrrring.

DURING.

aaaand....

RED.

I kind of love it.

my little niece told me I looked like Ariel... a Disney princess? I'll take it.

I know this post is getting a little long... but I am always bantering about my weight.

A quick...update.

I have been working my ASS OFF...quite literally. since August I have gone from 150-129 pounds.

2012 will be my year.

T and I are working our butts off to get places. and we will

happy new year everyone.

I wish you peace and happiness.

xx

R

In the new year.

a new look to the blog... and real-live updates on how we are doing.

xx

R and T

Rain//Keyboard

Ugh, im having some serious issues with this

RAIN - Thats been falling here in the capital city recently.

Like really? ITS SUMMER!

give me some SUN!

It really affects my mood...

in other news... im getting a new piano keyboard!

update to come :)

xx

R

I scream - you scream

I have a serious issue with ice cream right now...

its.delicious.
(photos from a wedding recption a few weeks ago)

obviously... all this "iced cream"

this is throwing my "skinny summer" plans way off base...

siiiigh...

Whats your favorite flavor?

xx

R

/musical/chairs/

"Always remember to slow down in life; live, breathe and learn; take a look around you whenever you have time and never forget everything and every person that has the least place within your heart. "

I have been known for being almost too sentimental.

so sentimental, in fact... that I think it is impossible to be too sentimental... I mean, come on!

I'm all about the "good times" - I have thousands of good memories floating around my head.

"all I need is the air I breath, and a place to rest my head"

I love music. probably because music is the gateway to every memory I have ever had. The song I had my first kiss to, the song I got married to, the song that was playing when I got into my first car accident. the song I played on repeat at my first college party. For good or bad, every song describes a point, a person...a feeling in my life.

"as if a good thing ever could make up for all the pain"

I have problems saying some things that I'm thinking out loud, so I find a song that is saying, singing, or screaming out loud exactly what I'm thinking... sometimes word for word.

I find comfort in knowing that someone out there can put what I'm thinking...into words.

"sometimes perfect, can be a perfect hell"

There are some points in my life I have tried very hard to erase. I have been a person I am not proud of, but a girl that will never be ashamed of. - I still listen to the songs that make me feel those same sad, hurt, unbearable feelings... sometimes I still torment myself. I am the master of my own destruction. one good play list and im down for the count.

why do I do that?

sometimes im scared that those memories are all I will have in the end. they all made me who I am today. so I will keep them. those sweet melodies will keep my puzzle together.

"paid vacation from sights and lights and sounds."

SO...Thank you

Ben FoldsAdelealanis Morisettealexisonfireallredaugustanaavrillavigne

brandicarlilechasecoythecivilwarscolbiecalliatcuteiswhatweaimfordashboardconfessionaltupacelliegoulding

//eminem/evanandjaron/fefedobson/thefray/gavindegraw/sia/gymclassheroes/imogenheap/jacksmannequin/jewel/katyperry

kesha/ladyantebellum/leonalewis/lilwayne/lykkeli/mariamena/matthewgoodband/michaeljackson

mirandalambert/missyhiggens/mychemicalromance/nevershoutnever/parachute/paramore

/reik/rihanna/sarabareilles/thescript/secondhandsaranade/snowpatrol/silverchair/simpleplan/taylorswift/timmgraw/

/train/theused//

For bieng some of my biggest heroes. for saying what I cant. for helping me through.

xx

R

.Summer.heat.

“Summer is where the girls go barefoot and their hearts are just as free as their toes.”

What a great summer kick-off long weekend!

everyone (including Boss) is totally exhausted



We went out with T's family to Dixon Dam where they have a gorgeous trailer (I am not much of a camper...perfect for me!)

basically it was sun sun and more sun! the best weekend possible to sit around all day drinking cokes and catching up. - Canada day came and we went to Sylvan lake to catch some fireworks... as we were driving out we saw this in the distance...

"hmm, must be a fire..."

as we got closer the cloud got bigger and smokier... and we realized we were going to drive right into it!

when we got right up to it, a warehouse was on fire, right beside the highway. HUGE plumes of smoke and random fireballs shooting up into the air! it was crazy! no amount of fireworks would compare.

We drove by this site again on our way back to Edmonton... there is NOTHING left.

it made for some good shots tho!

I love T's Family. I fit like a perfect puzzle piece. I love T because of the way his parents raised him. they did a good job, and If I love him, I love them too.

Its officially July.

woah, the year is half over already!

oh well. its summer!

.heat.it.up!

xx

R